Feeling anxious....

I have recently been feeling rather uncomfortable. Whenever I stumble onto news of others creating, or writing or any activity where the mind produces something, I feel like I am very much lacking in my own creative tendencies. I feel guilty to my own creative urges, I feel guilty for not creating something for the benefit of my family. I feel guilty at the knowledge that I'm selling myself short and settling for a life that is beneath what the possibility of my imagination can bring to me.

And to make matters worse, I have a job that allows me time to contemplate about these things and two years into this job have very little to show for the leisure time I have available to me. I am sickened at myself. What do I wait for? Am I afraid at failing, do I lack the skill to create in the first place? Perhaps if I chastise myself on this page I will feel the urge to do something that has been on the tip of my thoughts for so many years now...